Academics and Literature

I made a huge mistake this semester....I didn't take Senior Seminar which I need in order to graduate but now I realize I could have graduated next summer. Now, I feel real stupid. I just pushed myself back one year. I wonder if I can take graduate classes before actually graduating with my bachelor degree. I suppose I could work on another minor or major. Who knows. Everything happens for a reason though at this moment I really can't tell why I made such a huge blunder. This is a perfect example of why you should always listen to that little voice in your head. Damn that voice! I think I really wanted more time to work on my novel. I have so much to work on. That is another thing on my to do list. I will get that finished by the end of the summer. At least the first draft anyway.

Another note, I met with Laverne to review my papers for her class. I was quite surprised about how little she had to say about one paper but not the other although the L225 paper was (is) a mess. I had no focus. ...no organization....oh it was bad. I am going to start all over with my revision. A perfect example of why one should not write a paper just hours before it is due. L346 the paper has focus with only a few grammar errors. I have found grammar is not my friend. Actually it is quite the opposite. It loathes me. My grammar is in deseparate need of improvement in both English and French. I am determined that grammar and I will be friends by the time I graduate.

I must say my conversation with Laverne was quite interesting. She said she loved my analysis from each book our class has read and felt that I should not turn away from literary analysis because I have such insight about the works. She quizzed me about which genre within creative writing I wanted to specialize in. She asked if I had taken Mary's Poetry class. Of course I had to tell he I was avoiding it because poetry was my drawback in W203. She informed me I really need Mary's class because every great and classical writer gained control over their writing by writing poetry. I gained such insight and respect for her today. One thing that slightly confuses me is how she knew I wanted my MFA. Did I tell her that at the beginning of the semester? Or did someone else tell her? I suppose it doesn't really matter though.

Laziness

Much has happened since my last posting though at this moment I don't really want to divulge into it. I'm trying not to be a mopy cry baby but yet I'm sick and tired of lazy people. I realize I'm surrounded by them. Kinda like how that kid from Sixth Sense was....but I see lazy people. They are everywhere including my house. There are numerous in fact. What I would like to know is how in the hell did I get so many of them in my house and my family. Granted recently I myself have not been the most motivated person but yet I was not used to raising four boys by myself....yet I still feel like I am (but that's a different posting). There's my lazy ass bum brother who has invited himself to live with us, my baby brother who decides to smoke pot instead of getting his GED, and my mother....omg don't even get me started there. Now add my husband and older two boys. It pains me to see how much Mathew acts like Rob. He wants everyone to do things for him. Nothing for himself. I'm really scared that Matt will turn out with that type of personality. I hope thing will change for the better soon.

stupid husband

I am getting a bit frustrated with the jerk hubby of mind. He hurt his ankle somehow again so he went to the hospital to have it looked at since it was bothering him so much. He came home almost stoned....the ER doc gave his some pretty powerful drugs. He is acting like a weirdo. A combination of a drunk and pervert though he is normally an extreme pervert is his usual repretoire. I am getting kinda tired of his mouth.....I wish he would go to bed but he just finished a Monster drink so he's not going to bed anytime soon.

literature paper delimmas

I am supposed to be doing some pre-writing for a paper in literature class well actually two papers for two seprate literature classes but in World Masterpieces I have let her know what my topic is on Tuesday. I have no isea what the heck to write about .....either wite something on The Odyssey or Antigone. Right now, I'm leaning more toward Odyssey than Antigone. I think I'm going to write later on with a few pre-writing ideas.

Playing catch up

I hate playing catch up.....it takes so much more energy to catch up than to keep up with the assignments and work that's not just with my classes but also with my work. I have such a huge amount of work sitting in my inbox. I feel like I'm never going to catch up. I've even had panic attacks from this. I have to bring my GPA up not down. I'm really scared it's going to drop even more which means I will be in a huge amount of trouble if I don't get it together soon. I have to pull at least two A's this semester and nothing below a B which maybe a difficult feat if I don't work my butt off. I't really starting to scare me.

depression & gallbladder

Here lately I've been a bit depressed, I sleep a lot and not really all that motivated to get things done. The doctor thinks it's the side effects from this gallbadder thing and after the surgery to remove it things will begin to normalize again but I have my doubts. Personally, I think I've been using this gallbadder thing as an excuse to lay around which is so not like me. I'm the active person who can barely make it through one movie without moving or getting up. I used to constantly be moving. If I could I would go back to sleep right now, which is sad since it's only 8 pm. I will be glad when all this is over with and I can make routines and schedules again, know that I will be able to keep them. I won't want to go eat something or lay down for a nap.

boredom

This weekend has been pretty good although I still haven't gotten everything done that I wanted to but thats okay. Today, I was able to sleep in which was nice. I worked-out though it kicked my butt. I began my day.....homework, and a multitude of housework. I was content with how much I had accomplished today.

I haven't really much to say .....nothing all that interesting has happened lately except Elvinet breaking the fax machine.